Trading Rosemary

  TRADING ROSEMARY

  OCTAVIA CADE

  Copyright © 2014 by Octavia Cade.

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  Beginning

  Among those who could accurately judge such things, it was generally acknowledged that Rosemary’s library was the finest of its kind in the entire archipelago.

  Rosemary was justifiably proud of it. Begun by her great-grandfather, it had passed down through the family, with each generation adding to the collection— at considerable personal expense. She had contributed many exquisite pieces herself, and introduced order and organization into what had been a fine mess. Each coin was now carefully preserved, and suitably labeled according to its age, provenance, and properties. They were boxed in slim rectangular cases with burnished leather covers, and arranged according to catalogue, so that if one particular coin was required it could then be easily plucked from among its thousands of companions without hesitation or mishap.

  Rosemary was in the middle of such a plucking: one of her most hated chores. She deeply regretted having to part with several of her choicest specimens, but it couldn’t be helped. An extreme rarity had come to market, the sole example of its kind. Such a coin would be the crowning glory of any collection, but it would not come cheap. To obtain it, Rosemary was prepared to sacrifice some of the lesser pieces. Her family’s library didn’t maintain pre-eminence by their conservative husbanding of coins, and Rosemary had been raised to take advantage of the market whenever a chance came her way. “Rarity will out,” her mother had said, before returning to her history books. “You should know what is available, and make sure that you get it before anyone else.”

  There was only one more coin to cull. Stooping to one of the lower shelves, she slid the coin from its resting place, to take her last farewell. It was a polished marble disk, pale with green and rose veins, and chill under her fingers even in the ambient temperature of the library. Smoothing over the surface with her thumb, Rosemary cupped it to her nose, closed her eyes, and breathed in deeply. The smell of the coin coiled through her—the salty tang of the sea cut with the hard dry overtone of a sheer expanse of ice, glittering green in enormous chunky sheets. She remembered the last great southern iceberg, and how it felt to jump from a lower slope into the numbing water; a crazy swim one sunset. The shock of cold sliced through her, brisk and merry.

  Icebergs were now a thing of the past, and the memory of a cold climate was seductive in the unending humidity of the archipelago. Luckily, a master coin-caster had managed, before the damage to his aging mind became too great, to record some of his memories of what once was onto a series of marble disks, and thus the experience was not wholly lost.

  One memory from the disks was assigned to each coin, and Rosemary had tasted seven of the coin-caster’s eleven, more than anyone of her acquaintance. The heat gave her hives, and she was loath to give this memory away—it was a better remedy than cool springs that warmed quickly in the blistering sun.

  It was a complex scent, and Rosemary’s favorite. She would miss it.

  “It will soon be lost to me,” thought Rosemary, depressed, but unable to contain a twinge of excitement nonetheless at the thought of her new acquisition. She was confident that she could eventually replace the iceberg coin with another of the series—Rosemary kept a close eye on the other prominent librarians, and two of those coins would soon be on the market. Their owner was aging, with no children and a decided aversion towards having them. Rosemary knew he was planning to donate some of his collection, but assiduous attention on her part had ensured that before this happened, the estate would give her the option to buy the iceberg coins. They would not be exactly the same, of course, but similar enough. She would have her replacement within the decade—although she did not look forward to spending so much time without her favorite.

  Reluctantly, she slipped the coin and its case into the cover and stacked it with the rest. She would miss it, yes, but the family holdings would improve. She imagined the gratitude of her grandchildren with satisfaction.

  From the library’s large desk she extracted an amount of common currency, containing scents so familiar that they had small value, and were used in everyday transactions. It was an hour until she could pick up the sapflower coin, and there were errands to run in the meantime.

  Rosemary headed for the nearest market, and wended her way through the colorful stalls. She stopped first at the bakery, presided over by a fat, lively man who had run the bread stall for decades. When she had been a child, he had sneaked her warm twists of sugar-pastry when her mother’s eyes were elsewhere. Rosemary ordered a large basket of goods, and arranged for the baker’s apprentice to deliver it to her house later that morning. Fumbling in her pouch, she caught up a warm handful of wooden orange-coins. Passing them over she caught their scent, citric and sharp. A barrage of memories flickered though her, fleetingly becoming her own, giving her the specific memories of the original casters. They were hopelessly common—a little boy coaxing a long worm of peel, an old woman pressing cloves into a bright fat globe, several pressings of juice—an orchard of moments in other lives, momentarily hers.

  Casting any coin using commercial recorders disrupted the originator’s own memory, removing the specific experience from the mind of its previous owner, so common currency always consisted of memories held in abundance, experiences that could be replaced on a regular basis. Even so, there were often subtle differences, according to the taste and familiarity of the caster. Oranges were popular fruit but few who did not own orchards would try to cast their memories of them. The standards were best maintained in such ways.

  Next was the potter, as Rosemary needed to replace a platter that had been recently—and carelessly—broken during an argument with her daughter, when a slamming door had knocked it off its shelf. A range of crockery was on display, and among the three largest plates Rosemary found one that suited her tastes. It was a plain design, simple and strong, but with a vivid, expensive-looking glaze that reminded her of the sea. She handed over a single sandalwood coin, worn thin and shiny from repeated handling. It had a sweet, redolent scent, and around the edge were tiny intricate carvings, faded with age. For a moment she was the artist, working callus-fingered long ago, breathing in the woodwork. As the coin passed from her, so did the memory.

  The potter raised the coin to his own nose and smiled gratefully at her. The artist in him appreciated it, and Rosemary often kept such coins to trade with him. He tossed her change to her gracefully, a small wedge of apple wood. It was of so little value that it could not even be exchanged for a real apple, but the potter was always scrupulous about making sure his customers were not cheated. The coin recollected a cottage, wafting with new-baked apple pie, spiced with cinnamon and nutmeg. Little pastry apples had been pressed into the pie crust, glazed with apple brandy and egg.

  Rosemary had always had a secret liking for the apple coins.

  She padded swiftly through the dusty streets, and was but a few moments from her appointment when a weaver’s shop caught her eye, a beautifully tinted rug draped over one side of the stall. She stepped closer, fingered the carpet. The craftsmanship was exquisite, and the rug would look perfect in her entrance hall. Rosemary noticed the weaver peering smarmily at her, and grimaced. He was a middle-aged man,
with a reputation people whispered about behind their hands. If the rug had not been on display, she would have skirted him and not even considered going into the shop to look at his wares—the island had other weavers, and she tended to frequent those by preference. But none of them had just the right carpet for her hall. Rosemary considered. Even though there were only a few moments until her appointment, she could finish the transaction in that time. The weaver had a reputation of asking more than was acceptable. There was a was a coin in her pouch, however, that she thought would satisfy him.

  It was baked clay, earthy and rich, smelling of sex with a hint of blood acting as an insistent counterpoint. Rosemary had heard of the weaver and his predilection for young girls. She also knew—given his nature—he was rarely able to satisfy himself upon them, for no decent girl could be persuaded to go near him. The gleam in his eye when he lowered the coin from his nose told her that her guess had not been incorrect and the fading memory of the coin ran like water from her mind, leaving a faint odor of distaste. Although the memory was gone, an abstract knowledge of a coin’s contents remained with those who had handled them—this allowed for ease of trade without sharing the memory into worthlessness.

  The weaver promised to send the rug to her house that very day, and even gave her some coins in change. She suspected he was trying to sweeten her into coming back, in the hope that she, who was after all a known dealer in coins, would eventually bring him more of the same. Rosemary noted that one of his coins bore the weaver’s own mark. It was clumsily made, but sufficient to be legal tender. She sniffed it gingerly, and found to her surprise that it was not entirely unpleasant. Musty hessian, shot through with cool silk and the feel of fiber under her fingers.

  Inside the agent’s office she drank cool sweet tea, and rested while her new acquisition was being fetched. When the sapflower coin was brought to her, she was prepared to proffer the promised payment. They had spent months haggling over the price, and had settled on nine specific coins, each valuable in their own right. Rosemary handed them over one at a time. She hesitated a little over the iceberg coin, and also over the last—a heavy ebony coin, coffinwood. She had made it herself at fourteen, under strict instruction from masters of the craft. It was her own memory, this one, that of her grandmother’s funeral. The old woman had been a famous composer. She had written her own requiem, instructed only a single performance of it, but as the funeral was private, public curiosity had been intense.

  Rosemary had thought long and hard about selling this coin. She did not often trade in her own memories, preferring to keep them herself, even in the more limited coin form, but had been overcome by a singular opportunity. She handed it over, and received the sapflower coin in return.

  Tactfully, the agent left her alone so she could examine the coin at her leisure. She opened the box, slid the coin from its resting place. It was slippery-smooth to the touch, with no trace of etching on the surface. She lifted it to her face, and the scent was of spice-honey and granite. She saw the sapflower, only recently discovered on a distant Antarctic mountain, its habitat destroyed by volcanic eruption. It exuded moisture, beaded itself with it so that in the moonlight—the sapflower was nocturnal—the flower was limned in liquid silver. It was exquisite. She saw the plant coaxed from the soil; saw her hands lifting and crushing it, aware that only one of its kind was ever to be found, and that it could not be bred alone. Instant destruction had ensured a memory of the highest value—the same awareness that had come to Rosemary, standing over a fire and holding her grandmother’s last work before burning it to ashes.

  The agent returned to the room, to enquire if the coin was satisfactory. Rosemary smiled radiantly at him. “Truly,” she said, “truly it is the rarest that is the most beautiful.” She did not regret having destroyed her grandmother’s work, stripping her own memories, any more than the creator of the sapflower coin regretted depriving others of its experience. It was the price of being a serious collector.

  Bone Yard

  Rosemary’s daughter Ruth was less than impressed with her mother’s decision, but then Rosemary’s decisions rarely impressed her.

  “You might have thought about me!” she shouted, before slamming the door behind her, escaping into what Rosemary thought of as the bone yard. A dark dusty room that opened out onto stables and a small courtyard for saddling and grooming. Ruth’s private domain and one that Rosemary avoided if at all possible. She disliked the smell of horses, their rolling eyes and skittish ways. If Rosemary could trample a human with deadly hooves she certainly wouldn’t prance nervously about them in that obscene way. Perhaps Ruth makes them nervous, thought Rosemary, and not for the first time.

  She certainly made her mother want to kick: an autonomic response. The same reaction she had when she dreamed of a certain vicious carnivorous freshwater fish.

  When Rosemary dreamed of sharks, she held herself still and ready, watched them circle, showed them her face, and hit out when they came too close. I see you, she said to them, her jaw set narrow and hard. I know that you’re watching me, watching with your sandpaper skin and opportune eyes. I know you’re waiting for me to look away. With sharks she was awake, even in sleep.

  But pike—with their numerous sharp teeth and bony jaws ever-ready as they slunk about bottom feeding, wanting to nip at her heels—she would kick, knowing even in her sleep that there was no need but unable to help herself, feet drumming on the wall at the side of her bed, kicking scaly flanks and angular jaws . . .

  . . . and drumming in the ribs of her piscine child. And Ruth kicked back, bit back as she knew how, a pike to the end. Large-jawed, capable of holding and dragging, an endless weight that floated empty-eyed beneath her.

  Her daughter the pike. She would not let go, and Rosemary’s heels could make no difference to her jaws. Yet she had birthed that pike, could not gainsay it growing, dominating the pond into which she had gushed, scale-slippery, from her mother’s body.

  Rosemary knew pike and loathed them. She was careful to retain these memories, not try to sell them to those fish-dreamers who would have taken them— those who spent their lives swimming, or those who wanted to but could not. Who would want to be a fish?

  But she had given birth to one, and so had to deal with her. The knowledge was useful to her, and better gained from permanent imprinting than from goldfish bowls placed around the house, tanks in the kitchen, and indoor pools of pike in the parlor.

  At least that way the house did not stink of fish.

  You had to be cunning with pike. Rosemary entered the bone yard, kept her shoulders back, expression open, and tried not to look as if she was taking shallow breaths. (She was.)

  “I didn’t know you had become so interested in music,” she began, trying to make a connection. Must encourage the girl. “When did this start?”

  “I’ve been interested for ages,” said Ruth, her upper lip twisting in well-contrived contempt. “As you’d know if you paid any attention,” she continued, her voice rising.

  Rosemary resisted the urge to roll her eyes. “I paid attention when paying for a piano teacher for you,” she said. “Then the violin, then the clarinet. Each lasted three weeks, as I recall. I paid attention every time when, after only a little while, you said it was boring and you didn’t want to do it anymore. You wanted to spend more time with the horses.”

  “I learn better on my own anyway,” said Ruth, returning to the house through the folding doors to her bedroom. Rosemary was surprised to see a piano had been wedged half-heartedly into a corner. She watched her daughter seat herself at the piano, watched her run her fingers over the ivory keys. Even at a distance, Rosemary could see the dust. She wrinkled her nose behind her daughter’s back. It probably comes from those bloody animals.

  “They don’t stink that badly!” cried Ruth bitterly. “I can see you, you know!”

  Rosemary hadn’t known.

  “You hate everything I like!” complained her daughter.

  “I don�
��t,” Rosemary protested. “Play me something. I promise to like it.” If necessary, she would lie. Anything to bridge the gap that had become a chasm between them since Ruth had grown into womanhood.

  But after hearing her daughter’s attempt at an extremely simple tune, Rosemary strongly suspected the horses had more musical ability. She couldn’t convincingly admit to liking it, and Ruth pounced triumphantly.

  “I told you! I knew you’d hate it!”

  “You’ve been trying to learn on your own?” said Rosemary cautiously, and Ruth shrugged, trying to look nonchalant.

  “I might have borrowed some things from the library,” she said, and her tone dared her mother to make something of it.

  Rosemary couldn’t help herself. “You actually used the library? For something other than horses? Why, Ruth, that’s wonderful!”

  “I should have known that’s all you’d care about!” Ruth exploded. “That bloody library! Not Granny, not me. Get out. Just get out.”

  “You can’t expect it to work immediately,” said Rosemary, moving towards the door in a state of stunned amazement. “The coins will give you the memory of playing, but they won’t magically improve coordination or finger movement, you know. You have to practice as well, like you did with the horses.”

  Borrowed memories had been similarly limited when it came to Ruth’s horses. They could tell her how to fit a bridle, how to rub down a horse after a ride. They could even remind her how to keep her seat, although it took time for her body to adjust to what her mind remembered. But dealing with a horse as an individual . . . each one reacted slightly differently, liked different food, different scratching. To rely on the remembered reactions of another horse was foolish, and Ruth had learnt that the hard way, breaking several bones before she could bring herself to remove the condensed memories of one particular horse—a horse she had never seen or touched. A horse that meant more to her than any of the beasts currently inhabiting the stables that Rosemary had had built for her.